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July 16, 2006 · Filed Under theology

For some reason, I feel like writing today. Actually, I feel like writing most days, but I end up talking myself out of it for various & sundry reasons. Given what I do blog about, I sometimes think (’worry’ might be too strong a word…) about the picture that folks who read my blog get about me. I mean, looking back at my entries, they make perfect sense to me because, after all, I have all the necessary context. But most all y’all (excepting perhaps big sis) don’t. So, I wonder about the possibility (or rather likelihood) that my bleatings on this blog are putting out a (and let’s be nice about this) slightly skewed version of who I am. I don’t think so, all things considered, as I think the general picture of me is/can be accurately distilled from reading what I’ve written here. It’s not enough to get the full 100% “ghp experience”, but it’s probably as close as most of y’all would ever want or need, knamean? But, as is often my wont, I digress — I’m really a sweet lovable Lutheran…
I should really try and blog during the moments just before I fall asleep in bed at night. For it is at those moments when I am the most creative and ambitious person alive! Really… if I lived my life with the creativity & resolve I feel during that time just before sleep, I’d be in tip-top shape, great health, and weigh less than 190 lbs. with nary the hint of type 2 diabetes or high cholesterol. Heck, I might even have a full head of hair! (prolly not, though…) I would have committed the Bible & Book of Concord to memory, and my children would be shining examples of well catechized little Lutherans. Yup, I’d be all that and a bag of brats (’cause chips are for those heterodox Anglicans, don’tcha know)!

But, alas and alack, I’m not the person of those last, waning moments of consciousness. When I wake up, I’m still the dumpy, overweight, prone to headaches/migraines guy with surprisingly little willpower, who generally finds ways to fall way short of where he really should be. For example, on a day like today, I feel the shame & guilt of not having gotten the family to church. For the third week in a row. Oh yeah, I’m the guy who should be on the board of elders, suuuuure… I’m a hypocritical wretch. I suck. Yet I’ll still be in Heaven someday, because God has given me the saving faith necessary to trust in my Baptism. I feel the daily assault of Satan, make no mistake about it, especially in the form of pietism and the oh-so-tempting idea that I can contribute something along and/or show just how good I am. Thankfully, God continually reaches down into the muck of my sin and cleanses me by drowning my old Adam in the waters of my Baptism.

So I’ve got that going for me, which is nice…

-ghp

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